Orphanic Deception

  I live in a world where I can escape from time unknown to places strange and fitting for my darkness. Corners perfect for my whims and wisps of drama. A spotless world of imperfections and clouded dreams where you are welcome to stay or leave. But I suggest the latter, for it gets darker and harder to breathe like the insides of the sea deep below. Well then again, who am I to judge who can or cannot breathe well underwater. Maybe, just maybe they are better swimmers than someone who has only swam once in her life and that too barely. I am her. She is me. This is a line we hear one too many times these days but I cannot stop myself from doing the same. Oh it even rhymes! Well the phonetic in the middle of both days and same rhymes, I think. And I am drifting away from the starting. But then again, how do you start when you live in a world that is upside down. Do you just begin from the end? That sounds dramatic and clearly not what I am going for right now. There is no start in m...

I saw the mirror break,  Shatter into a million pieces.  No, that one is a lie.  It was rather a hearts disease Than a reflection losing face.  Out with the truth, I sighed,  Shook the mountains bare.  A lie, but I have tried again Nigh, the worst is forseeably rare. A pretty lie in a pretty bow. God, the flare.  I have lived through the pain,  A never ending agony of disgrace That left a lingering taste I never lied. I just hid. My face Away from the haunting happy maze. And yet, I have grown to like him. To trouble him always. To love him endlessly. He has become closer to heart.  A pain that never shuts down. A curse.  My pain, my Agony, my new ecstasy.

  Sometimes I feel like the world is quieting down. Sometimes I feel like the world is at a standstill, literally. Sometimes I feel like I am the only breathing soul in this entire universe or verses afar. And then I can hear it, my heart thumping one beat at a time, lup dup Lup Dup LUp DUp LUP DUP.. it gets louder and faster with every passing second that I am in this void. I can hear it all and just about nothing. It is empty but filled with chaos, my heart is. And it is choking me from the inside and whilst being noiseless, it is the loudest death I have witnessed. And I blame it on the universe for not being vast enough. I blame it on the world for not riding alongside me. I blame it on time for losing pace. I blame myself for believing that everything would go my way. But then I blame it on the one person who did not believe that things could have gone better on a different day, a different time and an entirely different pace. Kudos to that person.. kudos to me.

  Once upon a song, sung the moon a lovely tale.  That very night, birthed an awful fate,  While the earth smiled a sad while.  Long lived the song, longer lived the night.  At dawn She crooned, a soft lullaby.  That very day, sinister cries she spat,  While leaves rustled and swayed by.  Long lived the song, longer lived the night.  At noon She hummed, shone the sun a bright pile.  That very hour, time broke out a pretty fight,  While the wind breathed in guile.  Long lived the song, longer lived the night.  At dusk She lulled, hushed goodbye.  That very second, alarmed she followed flight,  While the river in reverse flowed by.  Long lived the song, longer lived the night.  Once upon a song, sung the moon another tale.  That very night, birthed another ill-fate,  While She laughed a sad while.  Long lived the song, no longer lived the night.